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Knowing Myself as Source

Knowing Myself as Source

We are all divine beings, creators of our experiences and One with Source. We know this from the teachings of many masters who have come before us. We have heard it many times in different words, but it can feel quite daunting to our minds and quite far away from our current, limited reality. Yet, it is exactly who we are- Source.

I have recently been looking at areas of my life where I am still doubting that I am the source of everything I experience and have realized that a major stumbling block has been a deep sense of responsibility- a duty to get it done and get it “right”. Yet, if I am truly Source, then I am the source of my own Love, my love for myself as well as for others. Why do I doubt that I have that capacity?

It has helped me to feel this next level of knowing myself as source if I look at it as simply a greater sense of self-confidence and self-knowing. I don’t know how I’m going to manifest this or that just yet, or exactly how it will come into form in the outer world, but I know that I am capable because all of my creations come from within. The potential is already there- it just needs my focus and intention to nudge it along into being. Focus and intention? That’s not so hard! I can do that. You can do that!

Rather than feeling the pressure of believing that since I’m capable then I must have the whole plan figured out right now, I have begun to feel the knowingness of myself as Source as more of an inner cheerleader. To quote our former president, Barak Obama’s, campaign slogan, “Yes, we can.” It no longer feels like a “should” or a “must” and begins to feel more like, “Yes, I want to!” Yes, I want to love myself enough to create that and to love others enough to share it. Rather than a task, it becomes a gift and an adventure. Our creatorship is truly our gift- to ourselves and to the world.

When it feels like you’ve had a failure or hit a stumbling block or are just plain stuck, remember that you’ve created infinite experiences before this and are infinitely qualified to create more. Take a deep breath, be easy with yourself and allow a little more time for your next creation to express itself out in the world. You are a master remembering who you are. Your greatest creation is your Love manifesting itself and, as Source, that Love is infinite.

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Not Lost but Found

Not Lost but Found

Have you been feeling a little lost, lately? Many people have been feeling the uncertainty and pressures of personal life changes and the reflection of discord in our nation as our political and social pendulum swings back and forth in search of balance. When we are not allowing ourselves to move with the flow of change, we feel stuck, afraid and a little lost. Where is all of this going?

I recently came down with a strain of the flu that has been circling around. I had it all: fever, body aches and a wracking cough that felt like it rattled my bones. It seemingly hit me out of nowhere, which is exactly how the flu operates. I have been fortunate in my life to get sick only rarely, but this experience sure found me! It was very disorienting to feel so incapacitated and to have no clue how long it would last. Each day I checked in with my Soul to ask how best to support myself, but there isn’t much you can do physically except to let it run its course!

I kept asking to release everything that was no longer in alignment with my highest plan and to clear out my bodies as much as possible to allow in more light. I didn’t know exactly what was being released or where all of it was leading me, but I trusted that this clearing would take me to new levels of consciousness and willingness to let go.

When I began to feel better, I asked my Soul for education and understanding of what the experience meant for me and how to make the best use of it in my spiritual evolution. One suggestion was to work with the resonance of Divine Equilibrium to help me acclimate to new levels of light. The phrase “this is the new normal” has been bouncing around social media for a while and this was my version of accepting and integrating a “new normal.”

As I continue to recover physically, I am getting more and more insights from the experience. But none of it would have been possible if I hadn’t surrendered to it and allowed it to run its course. Resistance would only have made it painful.

As you navigate all of the changes which are happening personally and globally, allow your Soul to lead you in focusing on the greater wisdom and levels of light we are gaining. We must let go of the old to make way for the new. It is sometimes a messy, chaotic process but it always leads us to greater truths of who we are as divine beings. Rather than feeling lost, hold the Faith and Trust of remembering that we are all just going Home to ourselves as Source. There are many paths we may choose to take, but there really is only the destination of Oneness.

Heal Thy Masculine

Heal Thy Masculine

Last month, I was guided to write a post about honoring the Divine Feminine and to look within to find where we are still not fully respecting what she has to offer. But the ultimate balanced feminine energies are not just balanced within themselves but also in perfect balance and harmony with the divine masculine energies.

Looking out in the world, it may be hard to see examples modeling the healed male. The masculine aspects on this planet are struggling greatly with the necessary changes as we shift into a new paradigm for humanity. In the third dimension, the masculine aspect is feeling cornered and afraid and is grasping at anything to maintain the old structure of power and control in the outer world. In a misguided attempt to be strong, he is shutting himself off from the very energies which will help him heal and regain his balance: compassion, understanding, willingness to compromise and vulnerability.

And when I write “he” to refer to the masculine archetype, I do not mean to limit it to the male gender but to discuss those masculine qualities within each of us. The mirrors of the masculine dictator in the outer world are showing us where we each need some healing within. It may be time to ask your Soul: Where is my inner masculine still battling something/ someone? Why is my masculine self afraid to let go and surrender? How does my inner masculine still hold himself in separation from others/ from my inner feminine? Why do I need to know to heal my masculine self?

In the fantasy film The Dark Crystal, the split of the masculine and feminine aspects was illustrated when a race of great beings split into two races. One group was very wise and loving, but they lacked the strength to take action. The other race was powerful but highly corrupt because they lacked an understanding of their connection to all beings. When the two races were finally brought back together, they transformed back into beings of light in which both aspects were in perfect balance and harmony. They were whole in a way that they never could be when separated.

Divine Masculine love expresses through the capacity to listen to the feminine intuition and inner vision. Divine Masculine power is in the willingness to take right action to bring that intuitive vision into form. Divine Masculine wisdom is the knowingness of how best to serve the greater good, even when that means stepping aside, rather than serve the immediate needs of me and mine. The healed masculine energies are that of a spiritual warrior who combines strength of purpose with love and understanding.

What is blocking you from healing your inner masculine and being the powerful and gentle spiritual warrior that you are?

Honor Thy Feminine

Honor Thy Feminine

With the return of the Goddess energy and with more people turning to the more feminine arts such as yoga, meditation and recognizing intuition, we are experiencing the re-balancing of our planet which has been predominantly in masculine energy for a long time. More people are becoming curious and even believers in the significance of the divine feminine in our lives. But do we truly value what the feminine aspect brings?

Recently I had a realization about differences in the way I engage with others in my workplace compared to how I interact in my personal time or doing energy work or spiritual facilitation. I am more goal-oriented and results-focused at work. Even though I work in the health field in an office where we consciously try to set a soothing environment, I am often still motivated by getting things done. But, the healing work is not really about getting the prescription written or the data entered but about how I do that and the opportunity to touch someone’s life with a little gentleness and love. The encouraging smile, the kind gesture, the simple acknowledgement that someone is going through a rough time can be more healing on the inner than any conventional therapy. We just don’t always see visual confirmation of the results so we don’t always know if it’s “working.”

I realized that part of the let’s-get-this-done mindset at work comes from the belief that it is the reliable way to get things accomplished in the outer world. Many of us on the spiritual path are working toward deeper understanding and expression of the feminine, but still struggle with what appears to be the greater importance of results on the outer. So, we sometimes find ourselves defaulting to what seems like the “sure thing.” The vagueness of good vibes or an intuitive hunch feels a little too mysterious to be completely trusted every time. Yet, the spiritual masters know the truth that taking action (masculine energy) without the inner vision (feminine energy) just results in the world being even more out of balance and chaotic. Both aspects are essential for creation.

I remember a teacher of mine once telling another student, “If the cat pukes on your new carpet and the Goddess says that she needs you to stay in meditation and finish your energy work, then you stay in meditation. The cat puke will still be there when you’re done.” It was a startling analogy, but true. The value in the feminine energies of silence, reflection and inner listening is not in getting them done but in how we can be through the practice of them- states of being that continue long after the exercise.

So, ask your Soul to help you see where you currently do and don’t honor the value of your inner feminine. Does she have your respect? Are there times when you still nudge her aside when you believe you just have to get something done? Are there times when you get an intuitive inspiration but ignore it because it’s inconvenient or unconventional? The divine feminine within you is just as real and present as the masculine energy. She is not strange or mysterious, but very accessible and knowable if we open our hearts to her. She is part of each of us. Just as you would know thyself, know and honor thy feminine.

Peace in Our Hearts

Peace in Our Hearts

With the start of a new year, the theme of world peace often comes up. With a fresh beginning, we feel renewed hope for what is possible and renewed desire to make it happen. With the celebrations of Christmas, Solstice, Hanukah and others lifting our spirits, we see the world with the fresh eyes of what could be on this planet.

But the most important question to ask ourselves is not whether we can accomplish peace among nations, but whether we are at peace within ourselves. If we do not love our family members, friends and neighbors unconditionally and if we still don’t see ourselves in our divine perfection, how can we expect to achieve lasting peace on a grander scale?

In order for outer peace to become permanent, there must first be true inner peace within our hearts. There are those who are called to assist us by working out these issues on the world stage, but most of us can best contribute not by doing but by being. If peace in the West Bank or the Middle East or among our political parties seems out of reach, ask yourself if you are willing to take the next step toward peace in your own heart.

When we are modeling inner peace in our everyday lives, we are creating ripple effects that have a real effect in the world around us. The journey of a thousand steps starts with just one. We have the opportunity to choose each time we take a step, whether it will be one of peace.

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